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Thursday, 10 July 2008

  • Summer Thoughts

    If last summer was about Bob Dylan, this summer is about his son, Jakob Dylan -- more subdued, more introspective and more riddled.

    Thoughts have come and gone, and I've pondered to no avail. I will comment on this one, though:

    We all make the most of our lives as best as we know how (and sometimes we have no clue). Friends are very important in helping you realize your options, your opportunities and your dreams. Along the way, they become partners in your conquests, and together you discover and uncover the secrets of life. That's why it's important to choose your friends wisely: and then, it's hardly a choice. True friends form unspoken bonds that manifest themselves in shared dialogue, through an exchange of ideas that continuously build off each other. It is surely not a choice to remain friends, but a desire....

    It is not enough to merely share one's feelings as one goes about his daily life. One must explore.

Monday, 16 June 2008

  • Love letters

    A real romance will always have a story, a spark that hints at, for outsiders, the real depth and love between two lovers. My mother showed me hers tonight -- love letters written some 28 years ago by my father for her, before they were married when they lived far apart.

    Such simple treasures can only serve as inspiration to the rest of us, if not reduce us to tears for the misery and confusion that torment our souls.

Wednesday, 11 June 2008

  • Reflections

    In love, life, you say -- Whatever happens momentarily doesn't matter. It's the long run that counts. Focus on the grand scheme of things!

    But I fear:

    Even the happiness from that blissful love affair you wish could last longer; the heartbreak from an uninterested crush -- it all does mean something. To not feel its tragic effects fully, to not feel the emotions and let them consume you wholly -- that is to deprive the heart of understanding the true value of the moment. Why should the dulling effects of time be any consolation? For even if something is not to last forever, there are things to be learned from love affairs and heartbreaks.

Tuesday, 24 April 2007

  • Halberstam and the future of journalism

    David Halberstam died yesterday.  I already did my journalism biography report on IF Stone, but ten years from now, lucky students of JOMC 242 can write about Halberstam's great contribution to the real journalistic profession.  He was part of what may be a dying breed.

    I'm too lazy to collect his wisdom myself, but Glenn Greenwald has a good start.  From a 2005 speech:

    One of the things I learned, the easiest of lessons, was that the better you do your job, often going against conventional mores, the less popular you are likely to be. [...]

    It's not about fame. By and large, the more famous you are, the less of a journalist you are. Besides, fame does not last. At its best, it is about being paid to learn. For fifty years, I have been paid to go out and ask questions. What a great privilege to be a free reporter in a free society, to be someone whose job is a search for knowledge.


    Such is often said and repeated in various forms, but I suspect few "journalists" actually grasp the true gravity of these words.  We all like to criticize our own and tout the nobleness of our "obligation to society" and endeavour to find truth.  But to do so, we must first understand the world in which we live.  There are two major consequences of our new digital age: 1) a never-ending supply of media for connecting to others, and 2) an ever-increasing number of platforms with which to transfix and publicize our individual identities.  It is scary to think that as we move into this increasingly technological world that while we can connect in so many ways, we are at the same time each forming our own realities - our own unique renditions of the truth.  We are all isolating ourselves.

    There has been an idea around for millenia that truth is objective and finite, that though it may not be easily and readily known, it can be discovered.  This idea still drives our world today - in science, in history, in society.  It is the fundamental tenet of journalistic philosophy: Find the truth and expose it to the world.  Who ignores it, alters it and tries to covers it up? - The government and those with power.  Technology gives even the most common people power.  The vast reach of the internet provides an enormous source of validation for people to assert themselves in a way they never could before.  Amid the squabbling of billions of individual realities, where is the truth?  Will the new millenium operate under a new idea, that truth is no longer something to be sought, but rather something to be crafted according to our own ideas and individualism?

    In the famous words of a senior White House official in the Bush administration who reportedly said to Ron Suskind, the traditional concept of truth belongs in the old "reality-based community," where people "believe that solutions emerge from...judicious study of discernible reality."

    We're an empire now, and when we act, we create our own reality. And while you're studying that reality - judiciously, as you will - we'll act again, creating other new realities, which you can study too, and that's how things will sort out. We're history's actors...and you, all of you, will be left to just study what we do.

    The neoconservative movement may soon be dead, but its conception of reality might not go with it.  Down at the individual level, if we are all our own one-man empires putting our own realities out there, what happens to the journalistic profession?  If truth becomes subjective - indeed, created - then how can one possibly make a living off the pursuit of knowledge and uncovering the truth?

Tuesday, 27 February 2007

  • Money math

    I spend too much money for someone who doesn't have money to spend.  The past five months (dating back to October 2006), I have spent roughly $2060.  That averages out to be $412 a month, which is $103 a week, which almost $15 a day.  Which can't be right because I don't even make $15 a day.  Other alarming figures:
    • I spent $450 in February, the second-highest spending month.  February also only has 28 days.
    • I spent almost $40 on "Miscellaneous" stuff.  I don't even know what is included in that, other than envelopes and postage.
    • My gross income for the past school year (since August) is somewhere around $2800.  At the rate I'm going, my money should be gone by the end of April.
    • Two years ago, I was able to survive on about $300 (maybe even less) for a whole semester.  I spend more in a month now than I did in five back then.
    Those are the lowlights.  Now for some highlights:
    • I spent most on transportation ($411), which covered two flights, trains to and from the airport, and buses.  Think how much more I would have spent if I had a car!
    • My second most expensive expenditure was on gifts ($330).  I can now feel good about myself knowing that I spent a lot of my money on other people, as opposed to myself.
    • However, the money that I spent on myself was divided into different categories, such as education, entertainment, shopping, food, restaurants, medical and the elusive miscellaneous items.  None of which totalled more than "Gifts" but which far exceeded "Gifts" when lumped together.  I tried.
    • I've been spending hardly anything on clothes and such, except for in November when I got a huge check and an after-Thanksgiving craze to spend it on.
    "Miscellaneous" also includes laundry.  Booooooo.

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